WE SEE AN ABSOLUTE AGREEMENT IN THIS PROCESS. HASHEM IS OUR ONLY HIGHER POWER. NOT SOME PLACEBO OF A “BIG DADDY IN THE SKY” OR SOME THERAPY TECHNIQUE SO THAT ONE SHOULD NOT FEEL ALONE.

What do we mean by absolute? Is any established theory absolute? Certainly not. Is philosophical conviction built upon logic and reason concerning the existence of the creator, considered as absolute truth? Will this conviction in certainly produce real Emunah? Is Emunah a feeling, or are feelings associated with it?

The faithless assume it is a weakness, a need for security, an imagined support to explain things because of a psychological need to feel some meaning and purpose whether real or not. Do we know we exist through logic and reason? Logic and reason are good but is it enough to be absolute? Why do we need to seek with sincere willingness as if it is the most important matter, if it’s only like book knowledge? We might see someone with a significant life change, who claims God literally entered his heart and changed him. If ten or twenty said the same thing and described exactly the way it happened, does this instill in us interest to search? Do we need more pain and desperation, or realize we must seek?   

It is an experience above the current mind, that cannot be acquired “by force” by relying on our power of logic and reason, as it is a gift that descends down to us with certainty. It is sudden, often unexpected because it is not actually controlled by us. Our heart cries in a moment of sincerity for the connection to life, and we often don’t even know we were looking. We find it because we were lost, so this is completely new to us.

WILLINGNESS TO SEEK TO AQUIRE EMUNAH. TO KNOW THE POWER OF HASHEM IS REAL AND WILL RESTORE OUR SPIRITUAL SANITY. This is an actual experience of acquiring faith, and not some philosophical or academic based belief, but as a new sense. We ask him to help us become more openminded and willing, to receive more willingness to overcome our natural resistance and stubbornness. We admit to him we don’t want to change if true, with a simple honesty of who we really are. Hashem comes down to our level to pull us up as we are handicapped. We explore how we worshiped ideas, things, many which we never realized we relied upon, to let go of them absolutely. We acknowledge God is everything, or the result would be nothing. He must be our One Solution, not some spiritual hocus-pocus component in some other system. No placebos or techniques work, because if there is a real powerlessness, there must be a real Power of God as the Solution. Any other power would be just a foolish fantasy.

Whatever our minimal understanding is, like we need power to live is adequate. Our sincerity and seeking as though our existence depends on it which it does, will produce results unless certain severe things we did will require more effort in submission, to acquire influx of mercy to save us. We can consider that he fixed others before us, so he can fix us too. We need to fully realize we need to stop trying to fix ourselves, our way. We realize any thoughts that we are too bad or different is just our gaava/haughtiness in reverse. Are we so important that we are worse than everyone who ever recovered in history? We let go of this excuse to realize it is all in our willingness to believe, so we become a child seeking a loving parent who wants better for us than we want for ourselves. We must acknowledge he will do a better job than ourselves, if we become willing for him to replace the self as the boss. Our own selfishness is the root of the problem. 

The Hebrew Slave (Zohar says our status in pre-teshuva is “now we are slaves” as stated in the Haggadah) serving until “Olam” Eternity. The Hebrew slave loves his human master, so he rejects spiritual freedom. Therefore, we need a higher influx of purifying power to fix our sick desire to remain in bondage, as is true for all Jews today. A full therapeutic Teshuva brings Yovel (Jubilee-50th Gate-Binah-Understanding) in a love process leading towards ultimate redemption. We will come to know at a specific moment, Hashem will fix us and restore our holiness with healthy minds. We realize the mind is limited and can’t fix itself, so we receive strength from His Higher Power which fixes us. Help from above is purifying “water” that inspires new willingness to be changed, so we will be reborn despite the resistance within ourselves to fight our change. 

We agree with absolute certainty the truth that this is the common solution for life, that always works when done sincerely. Hashem never fails us if we try. The path is open and inclusive, but we must put it first and let go of old ideas about spirituality which didn’t work. This experience of Emunah we never had before. We now know that human connections are not our healing. Olam means the Yovel frees us, from an Eternal Bondage.